How Anna Kendrick Healed From Her Toxic Relationship's "Bullsh-t"
This might be the most intense healing regimen we’ve ever seen.
Actor and comedian Anna Kendrick recently joined the Armchair Expert podcast and discussed her journey of healing from a toxic relationship.
The actor who gifted us with hilarious moments like Pitch Perfect revealed that she almost entered motherhood with her toxic, unidentified ex, whom she’d prefer to keep secret. “I was with someone — this was somebody I lived with, for all intents and purposes my husband,” she said. “We had embryos together, this was my person.”
The relationship became emotionally abusive after six years, and he eventually confessed he had fallen in love with someone else. Kendrick reported feeling like she was crazy and that she needed someone to fix her because her partner had convinced her that he was putting up with her “bullish-t.” “There was an inherent thing of me being so rejectable that this person who loved me very deeply for six years, it suddenly occurred to him, how awful I was or something,” she said vulnerably. “The shame, that lingers much longer.”
She knew something was wrong after her team sent the script to Alice, Darling and she felt an emotional attachment to the character. “I was coming out of a personal experience with emotional abuse and psychological abuse… I think my rep sent it to me because he knew what I’d been dealing with and sent it along.”
Feeling rejected and ashamed, Kendrick adopted harmful habits that required an intense new regimen to correct. How’d she do it? Keep reading for the three life changes that ultimately helped realign her life.
1. Seeing two therapists a week:
“I started seeing two therapists a week and I started trying to learn to meditate and I got into Al-Anon and all of these things ended up being very wonderful things for me in the long run, but initially went into them thinking, ‘Tell me how to stop being crazy. Tell me how to stop feeling anything.’”
2. Meditation:
Having questioned herself for so long, Kendrick tapped meditation for assistance with refocusing her thoughts and trusting herself. She continued, “I was in a situation where I loved and trusted this person more than I trusted myself. So when that person is telling you that you have a distorted sense of reality and that you are impossible and that all the stuff that you think is going on is not going on, your life gets really confusing really quickly.”
3. Alcohol anonymous:
In the interview she opened up about Al-Anon: “I did start going to Al-Anon while all this was going on. I mean, look, I truly dismantled my life, and at first, that was as a reaction to the accusation that I was crazy and I was the one causing the problem. So I had a conversation with CAA, my agency and said I need to take time off, I have a mental health problem.”
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